Thoughts # 11

 It's crazy at times when you think you can "rattle the stars" and feel so strong that you feel no one can crumble your resolve and the next minute you just wanna crawl in a corner and feel depressed about the bad things that are happening.

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The struggle is real.

Walang time

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"Malayo na sana narating ng Adventure naten, kaso biglang nawalan ka na ng Time." 

Words and Artwork by Neil Johannes Botor

Sometimes I feel like we no longer have time for each other. I mean, it's not the same as before when we can just randomly go off on a trip and forget about our worries and realities. But now, it seems like the stress of everyday life is pressing on us and we don't even do anything to relieve ourselves from it like our "recharge" trips to little havens within the city. I dunno, maybe I'm the only one who feels this way but it's eating me up. It's probably due to added stress caused by frustrations and uncertainty towards the future. Rest assured it's not a future with you that I'm uncertain about but the path that I'm taking. I guess it's taking its toll on me and we're both getting busy. I just hope you realize sooner how much we needed a break from all this. I'm hoping you'll see and feel all this from my perspective and not just someone who sympathizes with my demise. I need you to empathize. I can't say all this to you because I know I sound selfish and I know you're working hard for the future. All I can hope is that you'll also see it my way.

Halo-halo

Current favorite halo-halo: Mang Inasal's Pinoy Halo-Halo! So creamy and sweet with the right amount of ingredients! Really heavenly after eating bangus sisig! Can't eat at Mang Inasal without ordering their halo-halo. :3 Totally worth it!

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I wanna go on a trip away from the busy city life. 

I need R&R to recover lost energy and good vibes that went out the window due to stress and unfavorable circumstances.

Good ol' dating habits

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If only we can bring back these good old dating habits. :/

Poem from The Catastrophic History of You and Me

In the midst of happiness or despair

in sorrow or in joy

in pleasure or in pain:

Do what is right and you will be at peace.

In life there is no greater gift than peace,

except love,

May you always have love.

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The sound of chirping birds and sighing waves as they kiss the sand is what I long for.

Song of nostalgia

        Do you remember? I don’t know if it was the first but I was sure it was one of those first moments when we had the time to ourselves. It was raining heavily, the pitter-patter of rain on the roof of your car and the raindrops streaked through the windshield and windows like falling tears. I may not remember what we did before and how you ended up taking me home. Probably because it was raining and I was running late for dinner. We were quiet and careful with our words, not wanting to disturb the moment. Then this song came up and you said it was your favorite. I couldn’t guess what it was but it sounds really nice and melancholic, brimming with earnest love. You didn’t tell me the title then and you left me guessing, my eyebrows meeting at the center and my face scrunched in thought. I finally guessed the artist. We both smiled and let the song envelope us. I finally heard the full song on the days that followed and learned the title.

        Until now, I secretly love that song despite people repeatedly playing it until it makes me and most people sick. I hate hearing it when played on radios or by other people but I love listening to it secretly on my own. I know it’s weird but the song takes me back to the time when we were still carefully feeling our steps towards each other, prodding each other’s barriers gently until we can finally reach out to each other.

Pain like the sun

“You said my sadness was like the sun, beautiful from a distance but it hurt you too much to come closer.”— Lang Leav

        This line from Lang Leav really hits me here *points to my sternum*. I can feel that my sadness hurts him. He tries to sympathize with me but he can’t find the right words to say or he doesn’t know how to comfort me when I’m sitting beside him, broken and unable to coherently explain myself. This frustrates him and sometimes results to us fighting because we can’t connect. I can’t explain to him in a way that he can understand with regards to my needs when I feel broken. During the times when I feel like letting all the negativity wash over me instead of fighting it off with a brave smile... We end up more hurt than before with no one being satisfied with the situation and aching at the same time to make it better.. Only... we don’t know how exactly to go about it. This is probably an accumulation of all the bad stuff that’s been happening and how we can’t seem to comfort each other properly. I hope this is just a phase and better days are coming...

Wish: Go to book signing events and have one (or some!) of my book/s signed by the author/s

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     I’ve always loved reading books because it’s the cheapest ticket to anywhere; real places or veiled mists of fantasy! It’s also a way for me to relax and de-stress. Whenever I get really pissed, reading a book calms me down. It evokes different shades of positive and negative emotion in me which feels really good. It’s a safe place to experience the heartbreaks, breakthroughs, triumphs and bumps of people’s lives just by reading about them.

     I have great respect for authors of books that tell stories in a way that takes you to a faraway place or actually makes you feel like you’re the heroine of the story. You’re the one battling those insanely evil and powerful enemies. When I read the Throne of Glass series, I actually felt like the Fire-breathing Bitch Queen who threatened and cornered the Fae Queen Maeve. I felt as awesome as Aelin while reading her encounters and character development in the story. Makes me wish I also have my very own Rowan! *Cough *cough

     So as a bookworm, having my books signed by the author I so respected and admired is a dream come true! I can finally say that, “You’re real! Someone as amazing as you is real! And I have proof of your existence! You’ve been here!” or similar fan girl thoughts. I really sound geeky right now but I can’t help it. I consider books as treasure. So anybody out there who doesn’t know what to give me, just get me a book. It’s a sure-win gift that would greatly please me. ;)

P.S. I highly recommend the Throne of Glass series especially those who like fantasy novels such as Eragon.

New Year 2016, new adventures!

Happy New Year from us! :*

Grumpy companion. Humf! >.<

Our feet are ready to take on new adventures this year!