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I listen as the rain continue pouring from the angry sky. I hold my sheets close with hands as cold as winter as the clouds keep crying. I clutched my chest while sighing a silent prayer. Hoping with all the strength in my tiny heart that one day I won't be huddled under the covers, alone and cold. That day will arrive where we'll build forts out of our dreams. It will be our shelter from the raging world outside; all arms and legs tangled together in love.

The clouds' tears streaming down the window.

I asked him to provide a title for this piece but he wasn't able to come up with one yet so I'm posting this as untitled. I will repost this once he decides on a title and hopefully provide a different and better picture. ^_^

Every single cell cares about me!

I showed le bf this picture so the conversation went like:

him: You sound so forever alone. XD
me: But I am forever alone!
him: Hahaha. Hey, my cells care about you, too.
me: huh? why?
him: Because I care about you. 

^_^ Okaaaayy. Hahaha Can’t help but feel kilig over it. :”>
웃♥유

Iba-ibang kagandahan

"Ang totoong maganda..." lines annoy me because they box the idea of beauty. Dapat walang concept ng "totoong maganda" because we are all beautiful in our own way. Saying such lines will mean that one cannot be beautiful if they don't fall in any category of "totoong maganda."

"Mocha" Party with le bf

Desserts, anyone? ღ

Crema de Fruta by mama! Even though some ingredients were lacking, it was still yummy! Love you, mama! ღ

I hope you enjoyed your afternoon stay with me. :">

      I had fun preparing for our little snack party. Waaah! I wish I can “cosplay” while preparing and serving the food. Hahaha that would be too embarrassing with my parents around so I’ll just have to be content with simple preparations. XD ❤❤❤ 웃♥유

Late night thoughts at 10:27 pm

You want something or someone so badly, it scares you.

      That night made me realize how much you mean to me. How scared I was at the possibility of you leaving me... you walking away from my life. I thought that I would be strong enough to handle such situations because I had a bad relationship before and it didn't end well but you're different. Nothing can ever prepare me if ever you will leave me. Why is that? How come I'm so attached to you? Me who prides in being autonomous can become so attached to one person. It's like my mood and happiness depends on you and I hate it. I try so hard to detach myself (which of course caused you to be annoyed at me for acting cold and distant).

      You wonder why I try so hard to put barriers between us. I just feel like I have to. If I don't, I will easily crumble at your mercy and the barriers help me keep a level head when dealing with you. At least this realization will help me in controlling my temper especially if the reasons for getting mad are trivial. This will also help me keep my pride in check. You noticed how hard it is for me to say sorry if I feel like I'm the aggrieved party. Dapat marunong rin ako magbigay. Dapat matuto akong mag give way para sa ikabubuti ng relationship. I know I suck at that but I am trying. I really am and I hope you will appreciate my efforts to compromise. For the record, you have no idea how compromising I am with you compared to my past relationships. I really was a spoiled girlfriend to a certain degree.